I write this blog to remember the things I mean to forget. To release the memories I find too painful to live with inside. I also write this blog to keep part of my conscious  self here in the Tangible world when I ascend to the ethereal one.

When I die I hope that it be at a point in my life were I will not know anyone enough to cause grief.. I don't see my future ridden with love but if it does have any essence of it I don't want to leave it behind to grieve but instead leave here to be greeted by it.

Though if things turn out differently then those who do care about me can look back to this if they need closure or comfort. I would want those people to know that I'm not really gone and that they should not linger on the thought of me but instead move on and find new lives to be touched by or be a light in that persons life.

Enough about Yin, Lets talk about Yang.. Life, For there could be no death without life and vice versa, or at least a good life (overpopulation would make life unbearable.)

My life now is one probably best described an an older person's life with no one left but the unknown world. loneliness is sometimes stifling but I have things to occupy me away from the dark emptiness. This for example..or maybe this is a reminder, if I still had the Life I had left behind I probably would never had considered needing these bits on you're computer screen that comprised together to make words that like sweet honey make my life better and yet keep me stuck together and trapped like a Cocoon that will stay dormant forever. 

I guess I shall Leave you on that Melancholy note.